Saturday, November 7, 2009

when everything's going to be okay

Quote of the Month
Dannah Gresh: "A Girl should get so lost in God, that a guy has to seek HIM to find her!"
*amen*
(:
Song of the Month

There's a cry in my heart
For Your glory to fall
For Your presence to fill up my senses
There's a yearning again
A thirst for discipline
A hunger for things that are deeper
Could You take me beyond?
Could You carry me through?
If I open my heart?
Could I go there with You?
(For I've been here before
But I know there's still more
Oh, Lord, I need to know You)
For what do I have If I don't have You, Jesus?
What in this life Could mean any more?
You are my rock
You are my glory
You are the lifter
Of my head
Lifter of this head
*amen*
* * *
Challenge of the Month
just had my calculus exam
physics exams on monday
and i still can smile
(:
is this not grace?
* * *

Monday, October 26, 2009

aku tiba-tiba

terasa nak blog
and guess what?
(penonton: what?)

perasaan ini so happen to dirasa right before aku nak start my calculus homework!~
>.<
aku sudah mahu melepaskan tangan
*bloop bloop bloop*
apa bunyi itu?
(audience: apa?)
bunyi orang di tepi aku tengah mengelemas

*chak chak chak*
bunyi apa tu?
(kepo sekalian: apa?)


bunyi knight in shining armour ku datang rescue
(all the girls go: awwwww)


rotfl!~
this is what 1st year mechanical engineering can drive you to do.

but
God's good (:
simply cause He is (:
(and all His people say: AMEN!)

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

whoops!

i keep telling you all to read my blog about why i'm not going back right?

but as teeni has pointed out, i noticed i forgot to state why =X

cause i think i subconsciously thought i did :P

okay

so the reason why i won't be going back end of this is ...


i'll bring you all back to where it all started


*stares into a distance*


for those who am of the idea i changed universities (i'm not naming anyone XP)

well technically speaking i did and did not.


so this is how it is:


for the first one and a half years, i have been attending language school at Seoul National University (SNU), so i was only focused on picking up the language.

then around february this year, i graduated language school and moved on to my undergrad studies at Yonsei University.

so now, my major is mechanical engineering and i'm a freshman currently clawing her way through sem 2.


ah...now that we've cleared things up, here's the whole point of the blog.

in Yonsei, foreign students need to master the Korean language up to level 6 (this is according to the Yonsei standard) in order to take all the credits (19 creds) like a normal student.

anything below level 6, the student will then be subjected to the torture of only being able to take 12 or less credit hours per semester.


i did finish level 6 at SNU but unfortunately it wasn't good enough.


see, at first, my cousellar told me that this limitation only applies to freshman students but cum sem 2, she tells me a different story and that this limitation applies until we either graduate or get a Yonsei language school's level 6 (booooo O.o)


i've already taken the exam 3 times, got level 5s at during the 1st 2 and level 4 on the last attempt (i know.... O.o)


considering the fact that my major really doesn't dwell much on language, i have decided to attend the korean class this winter semester (this is where you sob - *sobs*) and get that level 6. The main reason why it is so important to me is because if i continue with this limitation to my credits, i'll never ever be able to graduate and JPA will revoke my scholarship and i'll be stranded in this foreign land where its people eat kimchi and fix their noses every now and then.


see, i don't want that. its not that i don't like korea, its just i would want to go home, someday.


so, the winter classes will be starting in Jan stretching to March. don't really want to go through all that jetlag for a 2 week stay again....i love you all, but i'm not that rich and the jet lag'll kill me O.o


why don't you all come over for winter? (:

we can go skiing :D

heeee!~~~


anyway, this is why i can't make it home end of this year. trust me, i was crushed when i found out too. but it is a sacrifice that needs to be made. for the better (i hope)


there might be loopholes here and there in my story cause i'm free writing. so most probably a thought or two might have slipped off and i'm to lazy to re-read what i just wrote. heeee


love you all!~~

muah!~~

come korea look for me!~~~

and buy me milo and tuna and laksa!~~~


-end-

i've got a whole closet of odd socks because the keep getting lost in the washer!!!!

a week ago

i barely knew this dude.
haha
his name's jeremy.
and he's now my friend.
i'm happy he is (:

by the way jeremy,
if you ever stalk your way here
just want to tell you,
you're the 1st guy who didn't complain while taking sticker pix
hehee
seee, you're somewhat korean too

Thursday, September 3, 2009

On Monday

we had a band performance! XD
i was
the DRUMMER!!
~~ wheee~~
meng yang, ching ern and ajay
made it for the concert (:
am super happy they did (:
thankew soo muchieee!!~~

heheeeeajay, my sifu,
was proud cause i didn't have holes in my playing :D
am looking forward to getting good at it!

dan gave me my 1st pair of drumsticks
for my birthday
in advance
*touched*
heheeeee

1st week of school has been rather...
tough, tiring
and...
a lil disappointing....
but...
the Lord has been good
that's all i can say (:
*amen*

miss you alll
and got another thing to say....
i won't be going home this winter ):

-end-

Sunday, August 16, 2009

After a month...

compared to a month ago,
how am i different?

i don't know...

but one thing for sure is,

i've somewhat grown a lil
even though i can't seem to put it into words,

i did
that tiny lil bit
a lot of it had a lot to do with my unplanned trip back

* * *
being home,
somehow brought me back down to earth.

i came crashing down so hard on day 1 that i thought i could've died.
jet lag + reality check = headache - physical cure

you see, being away, i knew a lil bit of everything.
but nothing felt too major, maybe because the stories that you hear are from a distant land
or maybe people don't tell me too full stories, missing some details here and there
or maybe its just me being a terrible listener, missed all those details

or maybe my brain that's leakier than a leaky cauldron, by passed all those "little details that mattered"

ANYWAY

my point is,

it somehow didn't feel that "serious"

or maybe its just me never taking anything too seriously O.o


*sidetrack: no, i'm not frustrated, although i sound flustered. its just, for the 1st time since going away, i finally stopped trying to reason these issues away and had a good time to just think and reflect and come to terms with how things are right now. and they aren't too good, frankly speaking. but its just looking into the mirror and telling oneself to "suck it up!" and go on a "head on collision" (quoted from physic lec) knwoing who's got my back*

but yeah, i'm slowly learning how to deal.

how some things require radical action,
and how some require a very different approach.
learning's never been more fun!
O.o
heheeeee

* * *
being home this time, i've learnt a lot more about certain individuals
and they are
*drumrolls*
my mom
gg
amanda
rut

i'm eager to hear more stories
and i know the Lord's opening more hearts to share them
=)

* * *
being home this time, i didn't get to meet :
*drumrolls*
pinky
abraham sebas
sweeks
mr chan

well, my apologies to pinky for
getting all the dates wrong and blowing up at her once i got to taiping.
had in mind a suprise.
but i was the one up for one
hehehee
the irony

okay people
i'm in hong kong now
waiting for my mom in the airport.
free internet =D

till we meet!

God Bless to the max!




Thursday, July 16, 2009

up, up and away!~~~

i feel like a child
being swept by the Wind
It is strong most of the days
but sometimes It gets weak
whoooo!~~do those times get scary!~
but when i look down;
wait those hands look familiar!~
they are my Father's hands!~
"Go!~ Fly!~ don't be afraid"
said He
So i go!~ fly!~ free!~
never fearing!
for even when i can't see those Mighty Hands,
i KNOW they are there =)
how you ask?
i just call out!~
""Father!"
and everytime He answers,
"Yes, my child"
up, up and away!~~~
* * *
2 Psalms 103:11 - 12
For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him, as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our trangressions from us (!)